Dated: August 17, 2010
I am 19 years here on earth and maybe you would ask me what have I done for these years? It is really a funny question that I would love to answer.
My mother gave birth of me when the only August 16, 1991 date on earth occurred. I am one of the luckiest persons who survived the uneasy development that everyone experienced during conception. This date is the date dated for me to be here on earth and this date will also be the basis of my years breathing.
Perhaps, when you were born, you became the princess at home. Me? I did not experience a princess life because we’re living with my father’s parents which make it a common house for my father’s side and I have many cousins who were born at the same year I was. I grew up without special treatment from the people around me because 2 years after me, a baby boy followed and was named after my grandfather that put their attention to him.
However, like every other people are afraid of, I was also almost put to death. When I was 4 years old, I was found drown in the sea and was brought to the hospital with 50% chances to live. Well, fortunately I am still breathing now which means I overcome that challenge in my life. On the month after that incident, I was also found poisoned with the gasoline I drank from a soft drink’s bottle. Again death visited me and everybody thought that it was really the time for me to rest. But, God was so good and He gave me another chance to live for I have a mission to accomplish before I finally rest. Since then, everybody cares for me and put their slight attention to me. So see how playful fate is? Well, it’s an advantage to feel that someone cares for me.
It was June 1998 that I was enrolled in the Primary level of Education and it was the time that I started to build my confidence. I have the guts to compete with other pupils and performed very good t school. School year 2003-2004, I finished my Elementary level and awarded as the Class Valedictorian and received some awards for the accomplishments and names that I brought in my alma mater. I thought that 6 years schooling will be enough so that I could go out from home and find work to help my family. But it was a very wrong concept that was installed in my young mind. How thankful I am that I have my father who responsibly told me that life is not like that. He told me that he had the same thought of mine before and followed his own without minding his parents. He set his self as an example to make me realize the product of his being hardheaded and possessing a dominating attitude that even his parents he over powered. On that day I was shook and I immediately changed my mind that I have to finish my study and find a good job after that I will not let my father’s fate will repeat on me.
Yes, I continued my Secondary Education bringing with me the words of my father, “you have to prove to me and to the people that you are the Class Valedictorian in your Elementary not because you’re favored by your teacher but because you are intelligent. Maintain to be an honored student until you finish your High School so that I will be more proud of you”. This challenging statement of my father powered me to struggle the odds and difficulties I experienced for four years. I know, it was not only me who struggled and worked hard because I installed in my mind that my parents are also in hardships just to support us in our studies.
March 2008 was my Graduation Day in High School. I decided not to take the march because I am only a salutatorian which I think I failed my father in his expectation that I will remain as class Valedictorian. It was my older sister who enlightened me to march. She told me that I am lucky that I am a Salutatorian because there are lots of students who are aiming for the position I have. I should not degrade myself with a very invalid reason. She also told me that even if my father will not speak to me directly, he is proud of me because I graduated giving him honor and pride. Because of her words, I marched with my mother pregnant of our 7th baby.
Truly, I saw the hardships of my parents just to send us to school. At this time, we are two in college which make it more difficult. I am a scholar and receiving an honorarium as Sangguniang Kabataan Chairperson and it help me a lot to at least have little self support in my college studies. At this moment of my life I see how determined my parents are to make us professional that even if they are full of debts, they still go on just for us. The difficulties of our lives push me to strive more and more not only for myself but for my family especially my 5 younger siblings.
Conflicts and misunderstanding are part of growing up. I had some with my father, mother and my siblings but we all got out from it. With the help of God, I learned to forgive and forget the shortcomings we had committed to each other. Even yesterday, I got misunderstanding with my brother and I cried on my birthday. Fighting with one another is a spice of life, the important thing is that we all learned from it and will try not to do it again.
At present, I am 3rd year college taking up Bachelor of Secondary Education major in English. This time, I could really say that I am matured and little grown up. I once had a chat with one of my nieces and she asked me if I have good grade now and without hesitation, I told her that way back my Elementary and High Years I had the best grade in school because I was awarded as Class Valedictorian and Salutatorian respectively but now that I already grew up, a lot of things changed in me because I do not have my focus in my studies. “When we are child”, I told her, “ we are focus on studies and little play but as time goes by, our way of thinking changes in a way that we tend to feel and experience the problems of our parents which turn our attentions from studies.” I have the guts to tell these to my niece because these are true. I do not have the vices that will destruct me from my studies and I do not even have peers who, I know will influence me badly.
If we talk about my love life, it is sad to say that I do not have a personal boyfriend. My boyfriend only exists in my dreams. Thus, it makes me think not to wake up any more just to be with him and be happy even for a short time but my boyfriend always wakes me because I still have many things to do in my real world. It makes me feel forlorn at times but he is right. I should not focus my life to him because he is only present in my dream not my reality.
Yesterday I turned 19 and I am thankful that I still reached this age with good health and very supportive and loving parents, with my inspiring siblings and friends around me. With my God and my Family with me, I firmly believe that I am warding to attain my goals and fill up my dreams in life on the other word, success. I will attain success that will make me and other people happy and satisfied, without hurting others’ hearts and without stepping people’s rights.
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